The fourth quarter of 2018 contained the pivotal moment of my FIRE journey so far – FIRE day. Financially it represented the transition from rapid wealth accumulation to hopefully well managed wealth decumulation or drawdown. As I write this though more importantly it also represented the start of what seems to be called the decompression phase of retirement and I’ll freely admit I’m finding this really difficult. Prior to FIRE I had 60 – 70 hours a week either commuting or in the workplace where I would be seeing new data that would require action every 15 to 30 minutes. I would then be paid reasonably well for this effort on a monthly basis with some being spent to live well while the majority was saved.
Now we get to do what we want when we want and there is no need for urgency but also if we want to eat I now need to withdraw from my wealth that will only be renewed passively. I can’t speed it up without taking more investment risk. So what emotions have I been experiencing? Initially, mainly a lot of stress caused by giving a good work handover and pushing too hard on our relocation plans to Cyprus. That has now subsided with us now having been here for about 6 weeks. After the stress left I experienced euphoria! I’d done it, I can now do whatever I want and am free to be where I want when I want. That also has now subsided.
So what am I experiencing right now? That’s have we done the right thing and should we persist. There is certainly some fear in there as well. Fear of running out of wealth, fear of not having enough wealth to meet our quality of life ambitions for the next 40 or so years, fear of my skills quickly becoming stale and not being able to re-enter my career when that occurs... At one point I even thought about asking my employer if they’d take me back and I have also looked briefly at what jobs are out there. Thankfully, I’ve bitten my tongue and moved on for now.
Now we get to do what we want when we want and there is no need for urgency but also if we want to eat I now need to withdraw from my wealth that will only be renewed passively. I can’t speed it up without taking more investment risk. So what emotions have I been experiencing? Initially, mainly a lot of stress caused by giving a good work handover and pushing too hard on our relocation plans to Cyprus. That has now subsided with us now having been here for about 6 weeks. After the stress left I experienced euphoria! I’d done it, I can now do whatever I want and am free to be where I want when I want. That also has now subsided.
So what am I experiencing right now? That’s have we done the right thing and should we persist. There is certainly some fear in there as well. Fear of running out of wealth, fear of not having enough wealth to meet our quality of life ambitions for the next 40 or so years, fear of my skills quickly becoming stale and not being able to re-enter my career when that occurs... At one point I even thought about asking my employer if they’d take me back and I have also looked briefly at what jobs are out there. Thankfully, I’ve bitten my tongue and moved on for now.